Crissey from North Carolina

Crissey D Meeks (Raleigh, North Carolina)

My name is Crissey Meeks and I am 27 years old and I know there are a lot of teenagers dealing with a lot of unexplained symptoms after receiving the Gardasil shot.  I just want to share my experience with them and the world.  People, doctors, parents, and politicians need to be aware of the toxins they are pumping into innocent victims on a daily basis.  Before ever receiving the Gardasil shot I was perfectly normal, I was a young, vibrant, and full of energy woman.  I mean I loved my life and I lived it to the full.  I was your typical over the age of 21 young woman and I was very social, going out and just highly active. It all started with an abnormal pap smear.  My gynaecologist was to perform a colposcopy and I had the procedure done.  When I came back to the doctor for the results she stated that it would be very beneficial for me to receive the HPV Vaccine.  You know she told me all the things that it would be helpful for me to hear. How it will prevent cervical cancer, how it was free, and it was basically a win, win situation.

I read the pamphlet and then I made the worst decision of my life. On 5/11/07 I received the 1^st shot of the series.  As soon as it went into my arm I felt a burning sensation going through my arm & my body.  I left the doctor’s office after this and went back to work.  My right arm was so sore, but I figured it was normal to have the pain and swelling.  Little to my knowledge did I realize that my life would change after that.  My rightside was extremely sore for over a week.  I had this kind of knot in my arm at the injection site.

Still I just brushed it off as a normal reaction to the vaccination. 6/08/07 I started feeling a little funny.  I couldn’t really explain it.  I felt pain in my stomach, achy all over; I just kept on doing what I was doing.  My brother was leaving for India so I was trying to plan a farewell get together at my house on the 9^th.

So I was pretty much running around trying to get things together. Saturday morning I was up to get started with all the preparations.  I felt horrible and it hurt so bad just to stand upright.  My belly hurt so much and I hadn’t eaten anything since that Friday morning. I just did not have an appetite.  Family & friends started coming. I mean we had food galore. I never touched anything.  My sister noticed I wasn’t eating and I just said I wasn’t hungry.

I was tired and in so much pain.  The next morning I felt worse, but it was Sunday and my usual routine is to go to church.  I remember this like it was yesterday.  I had on my red sleeveless summer dress and I headed for church.  I mean my car was a 5 speed & it about killed me to drive.  I drove slouched over because by then everything hurt.  My head, eyes, arms, legs, abdomen, it felt like I was falling apart.  I sat in church in agony and I couldn’t even get up to put my offering in the basket.  I left church and went to my mother’s house as we always gather at her house after church.  She made my favorite roast and lemon cake, but I never said a word to anyone,
I just sat in the chair in pure pain.  I really do not let people know when I feel bad as I do not want anyone feeling sorry for me.  I stayed at her house for about 30 minutes and then I simply got up walked outside and left.  I didn’t say good bye, I was leaving, nothing.  I just didn’t want to be around anyone.  Once I made it home I just cried.

I could not even take off my dress.  I finally called my mom around 10p.m. and told her how bad I felt.  She said to call my brother so he could take me to the ER.  But going there is a last resort for me as you have to drag me to the hospital.  I just lay on the couch and cried.

The next morning I tried getting it together to go to work. I still felt the same way but I pushed myself to go.  I sat at my desk slouched over, dizzy, feeling like crap. I think I stayed 30 minutes.  I called my family practice physician, they told me to come in that day.  I arrived at the surgery and they really did not know what was wrong with me.  I was thinking that they would at least make me feel a little better but unfortunately no.  They drew blood and put me out of work for the week.  I get my results back and they say I need to go and see a specialist (Rheumatologist) and so I did that.  They do the exact same thing as before, run tests and draw blood.  So I stay out of work for another week.  Once they got the results back they tell me I have Lupus.  So I accept their diagnosis as I figured that had to be my problem.  He said the condition was controllable.

7/19/07 I go back to my gynaecologist to get the next shot. Still oblivious that this was the reason I was sick in the first place.  I have the same symptoms after the fact, but by now I am having these trembles. I have never had this before in my life.  In certain periods of time my arm or my legs just start to shake.  I still just brushed it off, even although it was not normal for me to do this.  I still have the joint and muscle pain, headaches, sensitivity to sunlight, but I am still trying to live my life.  I am not active at all and I don’t want to do anything and I am complaining about everything. My whole attitude has changed.  It seems I am angry all the time, forgetting the simplest things.

10/18/07 I go and get my last shot. The gynaecologist was on vacation but her nurse rendered my shot.  Now I received my Gardasil in one arm and my Depo shot in the other. I thought it was crazy to get both of these shots at the same time.  But I am the patient.  I did not know that I was not supposed to receive more than one vaccination at a time.  So now I have both arms in pain.  But still I never put two and two together.
Now it’s December 2008. and I am still going through the same thing, only I started getting worse.  I figured it was a part of my Lupus so I went to my physician again for advice as I was just in pain everyday.  Medicine wasn’t working and I was taking a hot bath everyday.  Everything I did made me feel tired and I have an attitude that is off the hook.  My back hurts, my neck hurts, I also have trembles, tingling, headaches, and dizzy spells.  But I went to the doctor and they ran tests and took x-rays.  When she got my blood work back she said everything was normal other than my WBC was low.  My chest x-ray showed something so I ended up having to get a CT scan and this did not identify any problem.  I went back to the doctor and I have had a muscle enzyme test, in which it was highly elevated showing I have inflammation in my muscles.  My WBC went back to normal but my iron levels have decreased.  So now I am on iron pills.  I have been tested for everything under the sun.  When I started the vaccine my menstrual cycle changed and I have not had my period in over a year.
Since September 2008, my cycle has been going crazy.  I have anger issues that I really cannot control sometimes.  It’s just like I am a whole different person than the person I was before 5/11/07. I have bursts of anger towards everyone.  No one is excluded from my rage.  At one point in time I thought I was just crazy.  I just want to go back to the old Crissey and I push myself everyday.  Sometimes I feel like I am alone in this.  I know something is wrong with me, but when you cannot even get the doctors to admit that it is from this vaccine then where do you go?  What do you do?  I once was happy about my life, even when things weren’t all that great

Now it’s like I am in this depression that I cannot get out of.  The worry, the stress, it’s just too much sometimes.

02/19/09 – Today I am still going to the doctor on a regular basis for everything.  I go to several doctors now.  I get diagnosed with this and with that.  Take pills for this and that. Before the shots I was healthy, I did not have any medical issues and I was very active. Now it’s like I am just a whole different person.  I was diagnosed with pancreatitis. I have ulcers in my stomach & intestines.  I go through memory lapses when I forget things.  My food does not digest so I go long periods without having a bowel movement.  I have had ultrasounds, MRI’s, you name it.  I push myself and keep going because I have a 9 year old daughter that I want to see get older. When I look at her it keeps me going.

(Email address:  crissey.meeks@yahoo.com)