By Tracie Toler Moorman, Overland Park, Kansas
It is difficult to know where to begin when charting the 19-month journey my daughter and family have traveled since she was injured by the Gardasil vaccine in 2012. Maddie, my girl, as I like to call her, was a 15-year old happy, healthy, straight-A, honors/AP high school student. It was easy being her mother; it was a joy to be with her. She lit up the room when she entered. She was a beautiful writer and an amazing guitar player. That was my girl.
In December of 2011, she developed a hormone imbalance. It was rather bothersome but her pediatrician did not seem too concerned. In retrospect, I wonder if this hormone imbalance may have pre-selected her for injury from the vaccine. Perhaps it was genetics. I may never know. Her pediatrician suggested birth control pills to regulate the hormones and I took her to my gynecologist for a second opinion. My doctor concurred. Birth control pills were prescribed and while we were in the office, the gynecologist recommended the vaccine. Her pediatrician had also been recommending it. I trusted both doctors and believed them when they said that Gardasil was safe and the threat of cervical cancer was real.
As her mother, I wanted to protect her from any form of harm so I thought it made sense to begin the three-part vaccine. Maddie had always been tough when receiving vaccines but this one was very different. She described it as similar to being hit in the arm with a baseball bat swung by a professional ball player. It was excruciating pain.
Looking back, Maddie got sick after the first dose of the vaccine, but it was masked by symptoms we attributed to the birth control pills. After five days of headaches and nausea, I called the gynecologist and reported that she was not well. The doctor switched her from one birth control pill to another. The nausea subsided a bit but the headache lingered. She was still able to go about her normal routine most days.
In April of 2012, she got the second dose in the series. She was dreading the pain that she had experienced at the injection site and had the same excruciating pain with this one. After that, her health deteriorated quickly. She was unable to get out of bed. She had a constant migraine headache, unlike anything she had experienced before, and she was extremely sensitive to light and sound. She had no physical energy and no appetite due to severe nausea. Insomnia was a real problem, and when she could sleep, she never felt restored in the morning. She was very, very ill.
This went on for about five days. She returned to school but had difficulty focusing and physically getting through her school day. She would lose track of time. She reported twitching in her hands, feet and chest. Her vision was impacted. She was suffering from never ending, debilitating headaches, chronic fatigue and unexplained pain. Her grades dropped and eventually she was put on a partial homebound schedule due to her extensive absences. Prior to this, she had missed one day of school due to illness. Her health had taken a dramatic turn and continued to spiral out of control. None of us knew what to do.
I had contacted the gynecologist and reported her condition. I made sure that the doctor was aware that my daughter had a very unremarkable health history until now. She had been a healthy child. I asked if her dire situation might possibly be connected to the vaccine. The doctor’s answer was an emphatic no.
After that, I took her to her pediatrician. I mentioned my suspicion surrounding the vaccine but the pediatrician was focused on depression. She viewed the headaches as a symptom of depression. She stated that “50 percent of teenage girls are depressed,” and she prescribed anti-depressants. Deep down, I knew the headaches were the source of the depression rather than the depression being the source of the headaches. My husband and I took turns on “suicide watch,” as suicidal thoughts are a common side effect of anti-depressants when given to teenagers. It was a very dark and scary time for all of us.
Doctors’ appointments, blood tests, MRIs, CT scans, and EEGs filled our days for months on end. Her medical records filled a 3-inch, 3-ring binder. She was approaching the third and final injection of the three-part vaccine. By this time, I knew she had to be suffering a serious adverse event from the Gardasil vaccine. I called and canceled the appointment. I was lectured by the scheduler and told that if she did not complete the series, my insurance company might not pick up the high cost of the vaccine. That was a chance I was willing to take. I had gambled with my daughter’s health and it was becoming clear to me that I had lost.
One anti-depressant after another was introduced and the “suicide watch” dragged on. Nothing provided relief. I finally sought the help of a psychiatrist. He doubled the dose of the current drug and finally added another anti-depressant in conjunction with another drug. We also had a neurologist involved and countless other specialists. All tests came back normal. There was simply no explanation as to why my girl was so sick.
One by one, the specialists admitted that they suspected vaccine injury, although it was always off the record. I asked, “Where do we go from here?” and the answer was horrifying. The doctors did not know. I could barely breathe.
It was at that point that I gave up on traditional medical care. I felt the medical establishment had let us all down. They had no answers. I found a chiropractic internist who treated patients with supplements. This doctor discovered Maddie had developed many food allergies/sensitivities; her immune system was damaged. She had 20 major foods she needed to eliminate. She adopted a strict gluten-free, dairy-free diet. This treatment plan did not resolve the issue but it was a step in the right direction.
We added regular chiropractic care, acupuncture, massage therapy, and Reiki. These alternative methods provided temporary relief but nothing that was long-lasting. We adopted an organic diet. She began meditating and doing yoga. In some ways, she has become an old soul. Her teenage life is so dramatically different from those of her peers.
The next approach was a high level supplement program that was very expensive. I think my daughter was simply too sick to benefit from this form of treatment.
After three months with no improvement, we switched to a homeopathic protocol. This treatment plan addressed heavy metal toxicity, which is very common among the vaccine injured. The doctor indicated that Maddie would most likely get worse before she got better. That proved to be true. This worsened condition persisted for about a week but, after that, she started to improve. Her treatment plan included a detoxification program using homeopathic remedies and foot baths. She also received a chiropractic adjustment at each visit and was seen multiple times per week.
After a few weeks, she had portions of her day with no headache. When the headache returned, it was much less severe. I can honestly say that two years ago, I would have dismissed alternative care altogether but when you are out of options, where do you go?
My hope is that my daughter will continue to improve. Time will be the true test. There are no words to describe what it is like to see a sparkle in her eye again, to see a smile on her face, to hear music drifting from her room or to see her attend school full time. All of those things had been absent from her life when she was in the midst of her health crisis. She missed out on so much. It is simply remarkable to see her participating in her life after so many months of sitting on the sidelines.
While I have had many regrets throughout our ordeal, my biggest regret would be the fact that I did not research this vaccine for myself. Instead, I blindly followed the advice of the doctors.
A simple Internet search sheds light on the fact that Maddie is not alone. Thousands of children in our country have been harmed by this vaccine. Current numbers being reported are 31,148 serious adverse events and 139 deaths following the HPV vaccine.
In my opinion, the risks simply outweigh any perceived benefit and, sadly, the vaccine manufacturer and our government do not seem to be too concerned. Research into why so many are chosen for injury and others are not is imperative but does not appear to be forthcoming.
For the sake of your child, please do your research. Education conquers fear, and knowledge is power.
God bless you and your daughter. I am so glad you have found people who can help her. Thank you for sharing your story, so that others may be informed.
Catherine J Frompovich says
Thank you for sharing your daughter’s experience and story of how you were able to get relief for the vaccine damage she suffers. Unfortunately, Maddie is not alone, and too many children are suffering just because of vaccines. You point out how important it is that parents do their investigation before vaccination. With that in mind, I’d like to suggest my new book in production now, Vaccination Voodoo, What YOU Don’t Know About Vaccines, which will be available on Amazon.com. The book discusses the neurotoxic ingredients in vaccines.
Personally, I’m so glad that you had an open mind and sought alternative/holistic/complementary medicine, which is working to improve Maddie’s health. It may take a while, but I do believe she will become well again.
PS My suggestion would be since Maddie has had such an allergic reaction to vaccines (aka an anamnestic allergic response, i.e., a secondary immune response resulting from exposure to a previously encountered antigen–jab #2 in relation/reaction to jab #1), she may be tagged for life for adverse reactions to any vaccines, including the flu vaccine. Please do your homework to understand the serious health problems that can happen because of anamnestic allergic response if and when another vaccine is taken.
I wish Maddie, you and your family the best of health.
Catherine J Frompovich
Consumer health researcher & author
Kathleen P says
Is it typically children who’ve had previous adverse vaccine reactions that are at risk? My son just had his first of 2 doses of Gardisil and so far so good. My daughter is currently 10. She hasn’t ever had a reaction to vaccines but is learning impaired somewhat and continues to be in speech therapy. I worry about giving her the vaccine but not sure if my feelings are justified or not since my son seemed to do fine…
Glenda Smith says
We share the pain, Tracey!! Would ‘love’ to get our girls together! They so need each other. Let’s stick together and stay strong! Prayers to you and Maddie! Glad we all have somewhere we can share our expereinces. (((hugs!)))
Lisa Haislip says
Tracie – thank you so much for sharing your story. My daughters story is so very similar to your, except my daughter was 25 and the mother of a 3-year old daughter. Also she received all 3 injections. She was bullied into getting the vaccination by her GYN. I honestly thought she was going to die. It has been slightly over 1 year since her last injection. She has migraines with stroke-like symptoms. She is on anti-seizure meds with potentially harmful side effects. I just figured out the cause about a month ago. There are no anecdotes since the medical community has not yet admitted there is a problem. We are on the same path as you but not quite as aggressive but I am going to urge my daughter to try some of your suggestions. I will keep your sweet Massif in my prayers. Please keep my sweet Jennifer in your prayers.
Lisa Haislip says
Maddie. Sorry for typo
Jeanee Andrewartha says
I am wondering if you have considered water fasting with colonics/enemas as a treatment option. Having been on a health journey myself, I can relate to all the things that you have described but found that 3 X 7 day water fasts, and the last with 3 colonics, did amazing things for my health and also continuing with a raw food diet. Water fasts not only gives your bowels a rest but your body reaches a point of ketosis, where it flushes out and cannibalizes all the unnecessary and dead cells. The colonics pull the waste out of the body. Raw food, is full of enzymes and helps rebuild the gut which has been damaged by disease. Infrared saunas also help flush out toxins and lots of good quality water.http://www.quickfasting.com/ is a free guide to water fasting that explains the principle. The only concern would be that detoxification would be too rapid and perhaps a vegetable juice fast/ colonics may be a safer option, until you were able to do a water fast.
Clara Corte-Real says
I am so sorry for Maddy! I am also a concerned mother. All my 6 children suffer now due to vaccine toxicity. Due to my prayers (GOD) and compulsive research I am now experiencing a miracle, with a miracle product that I strongly recommend you. Please do your research on MMS, Jim Humble. God bless you. I Hope to hear from you, soon, that your daughter is now 100% well.
Mindy Ranney says
Wow. Thank you for sharing your story. I’m so sorry for everything your family has been through. I am feeling very sad about your situation and the lack of adequate protection for our children from the governmental agencies that are supposedly in place to serve the people.
In case it will help her, I want to recommend that your daughter take baths with Aluminum-free baking soda. Put an entire box/bag in the bath and soak in warm to hot water for at least 20 minutes, one or two times a week. You could alternate this with Epson Salts as well.
You can generally find aluminum-free baking soda at health food stores, the brand “Bob” makes one. You may be able to buy in bulk online.
Another suggestion, if you aren’t already doing this, is for her to take high does of Vitamin C. I recommend any type of Vit C other than ascorbic acid because asorbic acid can be hard on your digestive system.
I’m so glad she is on the road to recovery
Vanessa Haim says
Thank you for sharing your story, I live in Florida with a similar case and we are desperately seeking help! My sister was vaccinated 2 months ago and experiencing the same symptoms. She is bedridden with severe vertigo, cannot walk correctly and has severe headaches on a daily basis. She has been to 2 neurologist, physicians and even a blood specialist with no set diagnoses and no treatment! We are desperate as my sister was a perfectly healthy girl prior to the vaccination of this shot 2 months ago. We have been told by the neurologist that it “maybe” due to this vaccination but we are almost positive after reading all the stories that this horrific vaccine is the case. Please advise of any assistance you can offer as we are very desperate and scared for her. We are receiving no help from doctors and it seems like she has now turned into a guinea pig for the doctors with a continuing series of tests and treatments that do not work!
Desperate for any advice!
Tracie Toler Moorman says
Vanessa– Are you on Facebook? Look for me: Tracie Toler Moorman. I can put you in touch with families that can help and support. If not, contact the https://www.sanevax.org site owners and they can link us via email. I am connected with hundreds of families and we are all fighting the same battle.
This site is wonderful. I didn’t give my daughter the vaccine, more for a moral reason than fear about the vaccine initially. Plus it was new. I am one of those moms who always insisted during infancy and toddlerhood that only one vaccine be given a day (for the polio, pertussis, etc), even though that meant multiple trips, I spaced them weeks apart, and I always insisted on a single use vile, fewer preservatives than the multi-use viles. So it being a new vaccine just bothered me.
This validates my decision. I hope there is a facebook page for victims. There needs to be. It needs to be promoted. Victims need to tell their stories with details of dates of injections and symptoms. As much medical information as they are willing to share. It needs to be a groundswell so the FDA will take action. And so victims get compensation. There does need to be a lawsuit. Not that it will undo suffering, but if the makers of the vaccine suffer radical financial loss, that may be the only thing which stops this reckless behavior in the future.
How inspiring to see a parent rally all resources and energy to save a child. And thanks for your careful documentation of this difficult journey. Such stories light the way.
Kim Desjardins says
My 15 yr old daughter has had daily chronic headaches since last March. We’ve done similar testing and therapies. A year prior to the onset of the daily headaches she had the first hpv shot. Unfortunately I didn’t do the research prior to her having the 1st shot because I wouldn’t have had them give it to her. They continue to ask about her taking the other two and I refused.
I’m wondering how your daughter is doing today after trying the homeopathic remedies. I’m hopeful that she has had relief and hopeful that my daughter will too someday soon.
Unfortunately Maddie passed away this week.
Rest in Peace Maddie. All hearts are broken but your struggles are over now. Your wings shine bright.
RIP?! Did u read the article?? Maddie is alive!
When the article was originally published, Maddie was indeed alive. Unfortunately, that is no longer the case. She died a few days ago. People are simply trying to pay their respects to the family. Thank you for your understanding.
Guardasil has been known to provoke latent infections like Borrelia (Lyme Disease), Bartonella, Babesia, Erhlichia, Mycoplasma, Anaplasmosis, Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever, etc. Common belief is that these are transmitted by specific tick species. This is false. New studies in countries like Germany have found these infections in other biting insects like mosquitoes. These infections can also be transmitted sexually or in utero. Any of these infections could cause hormone imbalances seen prior to vaccination. I would recommend purchasing Stephen Buhner’s book Healing Lyme 2nd edition, and I would start his basic Lyme protocol. I wouldn’t bother with testing since it is only 30-50% accurate especially when the infection becomes chronic. Even if there are no infections, the herbals used in the protocol will help with inflammation which is contributing to her illness. Also doing oral chelation would be good. I would start with Bio-Sil protocol for removing aluminum since Guardasil has a toxic amount of aluminum and contains polysorbate 80 which allows this aluminum to cross the blood brain barrier. You could also use Andy Cutler Chelation Protocol for lead and mercury as well. Mercury in particular is synergistic with aluminum and makes both have more potent effects in the body. Mercury and aluminum (as well as lead & cadmium) are present in toxic amounts in the environment due to the industrial age and improper disposal. The more bioburden and environmental/chemical toxicity you have, the more prone you are to heavy metal toxicity. Also check into methylation pathways like MTHFR since they will impede your ability to detox properly. Eliminating processed foods and inflammatory foods (and supplements) like corn, gluten, dairy, and soy will also help. Adding active forms of B vitamins, fermented cod liver oil, and probiotic would also be helpful.
Robin king says
My daughter is 26 and only took the first injection but has had teeeible headaches and now experiencing daily nausea and stomach pain along with fatigue. I’m wondering if these symptoms are due to the Gardasil? How would we find out if so?
Marian Lovoy says
My heartfelt sympathy is with Maddie’s family and others suffering from this vaccine. At the time my daughter was 11 and I was told she needed this vaccine. I refused it. After that I did much research and decided I would not allow her to have it. I had her pediatrician basically tell me I was a horrible parent for not giving her the vaccine and how would I feel if she got cervical cancer and I could have prevented it. When I see the Guardisil commercial, it makes me sick!! This needs to STOP with Doctors forcing parents to give their children unnecessary vaccines to make big pharm richer. I will definitely not let them give this to my don either. More parents need to be informed to protect their children.
My son’s dr. tried to get me to ok giving him the vaccine. When I asked why, what does it do the response I got was well it helps protect against certain cervical cancers and some cancers for boys that you can get once sexually active. Ok, well my 11 year old SON I’m pretty sure won’t be getting any kind of cervical cancer, I’m not a Dr but I can guarantee this one. And if or when he becomes sexually active he may get a certain cancer, but it doesn’t protect against all so if he gets t hhg evshot he can still get sick. Ok, well thanks but NO THANKS because as my Dr you can still not give me a clear defining reason for me to give my son this. The best was I think I was told several times that it protects against certain (not all) CERVICAL cancers……still betting my son won’t get cervical cancer of any kind….EVER!
Hello. Thank you so much for sharing. I can’t imagine how hard this all has been for you and your family. I just last week was at the doctors office getting a stitch out while they showed me my vaccination records. They said I was due for a meningitis shot and also the HPV if I wanted to. I asked what it exactly was and from what they told me, it seemed like it couldn’t go wrong. So now I have had one shot out of the three and after reading this I’m terrified. I haven’t experienced any symptoms so I’m not sure if I should follow through or not. Any advice from someone other than the people off already asked (mom, boyfriend, boyfriends mom who is a nurse) would be helpful.
This is so hard to read. My daughter received the HPV vaccination and within a couple of months, developed “tension” headaches. It’s been two years this November and she has been living with a daily headache (around a 7) and chronic migraines that land her repeatedly in the ER. Nothing takes away the pain. She is no longer in public school. She has had an MRI, with no issues. She has been given a battery of pain meds IV that make no difference. She has even had anesthetic injected into her skill to help loosen the muscles. I read an article a little while ago that made me start believing her symptoms had something to do with the HPV vaccine.
The doctors have no clue. She went from having energy and friends to a person who stays in her room doing homework via distance ed. She works a couple days a week at a coffee shop but routinely has to cancel her shift to go to the ER for pain management that never takes the pain away. Food elimination produced no results. She now takes anti depressants and sleep meds. And she has anxiety; she was always pretty high anxiety,even before the vaccination.
We are at a loss. Back to the pediatrician next week to discuss the MRI. You can bet this subject will come up.
The irony is that I have the HPV virus and developed cancer from it. I vaccinated her to protect her from my medical situation.
That should have said skull! Not skill. 😛
How is your daughter now Dawn?
I have been researching Gardasil connection to depression. My daughter suffers from chronic depression and anxiety. Her first incident of depression was at age 13. Soon after taking Gardasil shots. She is now 24 and the depression and anxiety is chronic. I need any information you may have on this relationship. She has been unable to complete college. At age 17 depression really started to get worst. Over the years it has become horrible. Help Does anybody know if there are any medications that would effectively help this depression? Also has anyone talk to any illegal representation?
Karena Nuttall says
My son has had constant cluster headaches/migraines for the past three years from the HPV Vaccine. He reacts to all medications and suffers from depression from the severity of the migraines. Two natural medications that I have discovered through a homeopath that has cured his depression and he doesn’t react to is Othoplex PreGaba and Metagenics Metagen Methyl-Active. I hope your daughter finds some relief